tailspin
I've been in a bit of a tailspin recently. Lots of things are getting shifted aside. I feel like I'm letting the urgent crowd out the important - and that's not a good feeling.
Work has been nutty. We switched to a new electronic medical system last Monday & all the docs were in training the week before. One of the docs went on vacation & then got STUCK IN AFRICA. Can you imagine? That meant that we had zero docs and two nurse practitioners one day last week. We can't open the clinic without a pediatrician. So, I had to convince a pediatrician to come in on her day off. Trust me, you might need body armor if you are going to attempt that one. One of the other docs was up a mountain & unreachable unless I wanted to get the park service involved. And my fourth pediatrician was in meetings all day & hadn't had a day off in nearly 10 days. It was a mess, but we somehow made it work.
Then, I had one receptionist quit because she couldn't afford to keep driving 45 minutes each way (cost of gas) and I had to fire another. Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. That leaves me with two experienced receptionists when we really need at least 4. Especially on a Monday morning.
I have friends that really need me right now & I feel like I'm letting them down. Sheesh. I have KIDS that really need me right now & I feel like I'm letting them down. You know that movie where the guy clones himself? That's starting to sound very attractive.
I'm leaving for Boston on Friday. My cousin is getting married next Sunday. I can't wait to go, but I am, of course stressing about what to wear & if my kids will be okay while I'm gone.
Honestly, I wish I was a kid in daycare again. Naps, and toys, and snacks, and freetime. Sounds blissful.
